well its the 22nd, tomorrow, monday will be my 27th birthday. what a waste this year has been for me. and ive lost a lot from that I had last year, and it doesn't feel like a year has gone by and it doesn't feel like my pain has lessened all that much. I know I have changed some from this experience I know, more that to the medication than to the pain I think but without the pain I wouldn't have gotten the medication... friend arrives at the begining of august. I tried going back to my old job asking if they needed me back, and never got a call. I really didnt want to go back there.but I do need money, now I have that van but no money to go out at all. more later I suppose