My days have stayed petty much the same, I'm not working out as much as I should, and I have been doing other shit I shouldn't while still dealing with the medication stupor I get out in every night now.

I don't do any of the things I used to when I lived in hickory, I don't go play mtg, or hang out with that group, because I never felt like I fit in there or with those guys, I wasn't nerdy enough.  So all I've really been doing is working and sleeping a bit of watching tv and being online.

 I really am at a loss for what to write anymore on any blog, or what my next project should be, if I should try to get my paranormal idea going, by getting a website going for it and seeing if I'll start getting calls from it. I would just set up to use google forwarding or something so that I won't end up with hundreds of business cards with bad phone numbers and websites on it like with dtpi, I hate that I ended dtpi but no one seemed to have an interest to keep it going. In my new idea, I believe I could use just a single camera with several batteries and a voice recorder just got to get the gear back together, and my idea isn't really just to do investigations but help others with what I know, and could help in certain cleansing rituals that I'm aware of how to do. 

It's a new year, my life hasn't really changed I don't believe, since my last post, I'm living with my mother, I didn't work the renn fair this year I'm back working at dominos. I haven't been doing too

well on medications and with my anger issues, I've gotten mad too many times in the last few months where I've hurt my hand badly now crippling me from being able to work out with that arm, hold a pizza peal, or even cut a pizza without pain, part of that pain being from a fall that then made me mad and I punched someone's porch that I tripped on. Currently I'm taking depakote propranolol and seraquill. I was changed to seraquill from citaopram, I took another drug between those two, but I don't remember that it was called. It's all driving me crazy I think it's fucking with me more being on meds than I was before I ever started taking anything.
I spend most of my time out of it watching tv or netflix, I have tried to stay in shape but I'm failing at it since hurting my hand and I can't do pull ups anymore and they were doing a lot to keep up my physical fitness, I guess I just have to wait until it's healed. I have done it before when I have broken my hand, this Time I did however go to the doctor to see if it was broken and with the meds they gave me and the pain I was and am still in, I think( and thought ) it is broken the way it hurts.

I still haven't worked on going back to college yet, I still believe I have time with no one but a dog to take care of. I know of some local colleges where I could get a bachelor in criminal justice, or I could attempt to go back for another associates degree in computer something, I just worry that I would or wouldn't be smart enough to do all of the work. I have a few amateur coding attempts but nothing that I don't believe a normal computer user could do. I really don't know what to do at this point or who to talk to about what I should do, I just know I'm going crazy working at dominos again.