It's a new year, my life hasn't really changed I don't believe, since my last post, I'm living with my mother, I didn't work the renn fair this year I'm back working at dominos. I haven't been doing too

well on medications and with my anger issues, I've gotten mad too many times in the last few months where I've hurt my hand badly now crippling me from being able to work out with that arm, hold a pizza peal, or even cut a pizza without pain, part of that pain being from a fall that then made me mad and I punched someone's porch that I tripped on. Currently I'm taking depakote propranolol and seraquill. I was changed to seraquill from citaopram, I took another drug between those two, but I don't remember that it was called. It's all driving me crazy I think it's fucking with me more being on meds than I was before I ever started taking anything.
I spend most of my time out of it watching tv or netflix, I have tried to stay in shape but I'm failing at it since hurting my hand and I can't do pull ups anymore and they were doing a lot to keep up my physical fitness, I guess I just have to wait until it's healed. I have done it before when I have broken my hand, this Time I did however go to the doctor to see if it was broken and with the meds they gave me and the pain I was and am still in, I think( and thought ) it is broken the way it hurts.

I still haven't worked on going back to college yet, I still believe I have time with no one but a dog to take care of. I know of some local colleges where I could get a bachelor in criminal justice, or I could attempt to go back for another associates degree in computer something, I just worry that I would or wouldn't be smart enough to do all of the work. I have a few amateur coding attempts but nothing that I don't believe a normal computer user could do. I really don't know what to do at this point or who to talk to about what I should do, I just know I'm going crazy working at dominos again.