all the days have been the same and are kinda running into each other, the only things I really look forward to is tv shows and talking to one person. the last few days going to sleep has been easy just passing out on my mothers bed as we watch tv, we all have big tvs in our rooms and mine is never used really and its the biggest out of the bunch. I also got mine first. I'm sure I could have gotten different things at the time.I like all the new super hero shows and movies they are something I enjoy.

I stopped taking my anti depressant, the rabbit pellets pills, I stopped taking them because they stopped giving them out as free samples and the doctor hasn't written me a prescription to get it elsewhere. they used to give me a months supply at a time and the last time I went the woman there said I could only get two weeks worth. not to mention that they do drug tests now on all the people and they want me to pay several hundred dollars on it, see when I go in there I don't have any money and they never ask for it except one bitchy woman who I have the glory of talking to and she wanted me to pay to see the psychiatrist  and I told her I never pay, and ill never pay that money I owe them for that drug test. I don't really feel any different now not taking them, but I do know all the pills I went through made me crazy some weeks when I was changing back and forth between prescriptions. that's why I got so bad bunching holes in walls I guess.

thanksgiving is coming up, a year or so ago I refused to come out for the prayer so that year was different and I wanted to choose not to have to deal with something I don't follow, I didn't say I didn't believe in Christianity, I believe all religions have power behind them because people believe in them, and Christianity took over most of the religious world by killing "witches" and others years ago. there was also Hitler who wiped out most of the Jewish world making that religion loose its muster in the world.... I'm running around with stories in my mind now and rambling so i'll stop now.