Today  I tried working more on the camper woke up early and just could not get into it. after about an hour trying went in for food and so on. went back out could not get myself to do  anything, came back in and passed out on my bed, my help played video games all day.

woke up to fighting. my uncle had given my mother a black eye by punching her in the face. and I hate myself for doing nothing about it. I could have kicked his ass, called the cops or something. hell I got made at my other uncle who now has past for throwing his dog, but the difference was me being on my medication.

I just do not react at all depending on if I have it or not, even if I feel I should have kicked his ass. but I did nothing but try to keep the calm in the house, my aunt threw him out of the house for a few hours. this family is just crazy, honestly.



one note I wanted to mention about the camper, the day I bought it. when people look at me they will always see a kid I think. I rode along with the person who pulled the camper for me, because well I dont have a truck to pull it but I had the money. does the guy walk up to me, whom he had been speaking to this entire time about the camper, no. He speaks to my driver. at which point in my life will people look at me and see an adult?